OurLadyJ

welcoming back the uninvited

i’ve got to come to peace

with the amount of space

that gender takes

in our day to day lives

…born into unisex

after steinem

after the revolution

i embraced sexual ambiguity

as my armor, my protection

from my accepting my dysphoric state

from accepting gender as reality

but reality always wins

once we start to participate

lewis vs. harris

At 3:00 today the New Jersey Supreme Court unanimously ruled that same-sex couples must have access to the rights and benefits of marriage, and gave the New Jersey legislature six months to decide how to make that happen.

winter

fall and such is bringing

the air again

hibernation

i came out to my brothers, two of them

as a woman

i think they get it

of course, they’re not surprised

i doubt they are, i mean

but i didn’t leave much room for them to talk

i dominate

to alleviate the awkwardness

typical of me

let’s sing a song so you can’t hear what i just told you

cuz i’m afraid you won’t like it/me once you digest

bling/blang/glitterozzi/sparkle sparkle bang bang

as usual

i think the hibernation will be necessary for them

i will rest soon

my head is stalling

i’m not blogging much

because i’m afraid of the heat

that’s coming from between my legs

my sex is demanding so much attention

that  i just want to shut it all down

communication, breath, etc.

my robotic masterboard

is trying to follow the rules of a sterile society

we don’t get it on enough

period

that’s where all this violence comes from

make love, not war

let’s fuck our brains out

i’d like that very much

yoko ono agrees (my guardian)

you know, that quote about less sex= more violence

i just saw shortbus, and it’s so true

not very real, but pretty true

i’m going to try to be okay with

being a hormonal animal

it’s the repression that kills us

jesus gave me aids

my own immaculate conception

bonus

my roomie and me

it’s all extra

i’ve decided not to stress

like the bonus question on a quiz

if you’re right, than good for you

if not, than it doesn’t count against you

i’m living on ghost time

having outlived my natural life

through the advancements of science, these pills that keep me alive

but, anyone who has ever taken an antibiotic can join me in saying that

it’s not the maker’s time anymore- it’s our choice to stay here

so there is no measurement for success-

every moment is prosperity

2015

out of our office window

the new year’s ball says 2015

if it hadn’t been pointed out by a co-worker

that a movie was being filmed,

i would’ve just assumed that i had overslept

9 years

stranger things have happened

the new dracula

i’m obsessed with my blood

glucose, sodium, potassium, chloride, carbon dioxide, urea nitrogen, creatinine, bun/creatinine ration, uric acid, phosphorus, calcium, total cholesterol. hdl cholesterol, cholesterol/hdl ration, calculated ldl chol, triglycerides, total protein, albumin, calculated globulin, a/g ration, total bilirubin, direct bilirubin, alkaline phosphatase, ggt, ast, alt, ld, iron, wbc, rbc, hemoblobin, hematocrit, mcv, mch, mchc, rdw, platelet count, total neutrophils, total lymphocytes, monocytes, eosinophils, basophils, absolute neutrophils, absolute lymphocytes, absolute monocytes, absolute eosinophils, absolute basophils… all normal

the love is in the blood

the change is in the blood

the work is in the blood

my choice is in the blood

the lady lives, in the blood

dulling

no photos today

words are missing too

trying to release a thought

can b so difficult sometimes

like banging on a can

to make sound make sense

it’s finding a grid-line

and imagining it covers the globe

THERE is rhythm

organizing

managing what seems to be unmanageable

god covers me now