OurLadyJ

yes, it’s all about the money (but still i’m shocked every time). perhaps i am new here.

CNN Money Feb 27, 2007
This week, members of Big Pharma will lift the curtain on what could be the next generation of HIV drugs. Pfizer, Merck, Johnson & Johnson and the biotech Gilead Sciences are all planning to unveil study results on drugs that slow the spread of the AIDS virus in Los Angeles this week, at the Conference on Retroviruses and Opportunistic Infection. AIDS drugs might not have the blockbuster potential of drugs that treat cancer and heart disease, which afflict patients in the relatively affluent U.S. and European populations. About two-thirds of the approximately 40 million worldwide AIDS patients live in sub-Saharan Africa, and many are too poor to afford the thousands of dollars in annual costs for HIV anti-virals. But these drugs do serve as rich PR platforms for drug companies, which often give them away or sell them at reduced prices.

ka-pow

there was just an explosion outside my office building

43rd/broadway

and then another one

people screaming and such

the building manager’s voice came across the emergency speakers

it was just a manhole blowing it’s top

as we all looked out the window

‘don’t panic’

aiy, aiy, aiy

my nerves are frazzled

this fucking war

Entry for February 26, 2007

my mind is still on vacation

what’s going on in the world

i’ve avoided the news, have no idea

perhaps time to get out of my head

and into the rush of society

i’ve been dizzy

the sky is blue, the grass is green

a very good place to start

back to nyc

it’s cold…

yesterday, 11am

pina colada

on the beach

today

the airport.

ugh.

as long as i keep my tan

i won’t complain.

hehe

glad to be back on land

grounded and such

…

day 6, 7, & 8

out at sea all day, classes again

amazing

we had the meeting about the transition

so simple

it’s happening

i’m done blogging for the week

too much time, too much to say

I need my busy schedule and my caring friends

to limit the blog to a few lines

right now, I’ve deleted pages and pages of material

that should be private conversations instead

i’ll be back soon

day 5

Thursday

“we will not be distended and horrifying”

susan shouting, yoga again

as I swirled oxygen into my pelvis

I connected to the fall of two.thousand.four

when my center was snapped shut

like magic

my body was surrounded with a bubble

baby david, was it?

a shot from a science fiction film

animatronically clicking

a biosphere extending from my broken breath.

puffing defense out of my pelvis,

an octopus shooting ink into the sea

a cloud to protect.

impermeable.

all from yoga? breathe, lady.

later,

the beach

napping on deck

ipod

god, i love johnny cash’s cover of ‘hurt’

the ship is leaving st. thomas

the water is just like they say it is

blue blue blue blue blue

day 4

this morning

yoga with susan again

another dream, she said

this time we were running through Chaos

and she checking checking in on me, and I on her.

all was fine, though

as long as we watched over each other.

I agreed.

…

for a moment she reminded me of the lover I had

during the hiv fiasco

the way she knows her body

he knew his.

except, susan has life.

…

everyday i’ve been doing six and a half miles of cardio

after yoga

that lady gives off some kind of energy

off to the beach

…

wow.

the ocean changes everything.

St. John’s Antigua, 90 degrees

i’d forgotten how giving the sun is.

it doesn’t care… just feel it.

and i, terrified at exposing my transitional body at the beach,

accepted the sun as mine.

and so my body was at home.

divine, really. just divine.

…

back on deck.

i think i’ll go running as the sun sets.

day 3

morning…

my wrists and palms were glowing

as my spine relaxed into the ground

lying down, the vertical lights

aurora, somewhere

open, rooted and energized

susan touching my feet

hildegard playing on her ipod

the boat rocking as we ported into puerto rico

later…

san juan. rum, rum everywhere

i’ve never seen so much rum

drinking in the streets at 1pm

the view from the fort was beautiful

even later…

i hate the casino!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!