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my little brother left yesterday for the army

thank god he’s going to germany

we didn’t know until last week

i thought he was going to iraq

thank goddess

seriously, if i believed

i would believe

but for now,

i’m just happy with a map/grid/outline

of the whole picture

and right now

the picture is nice…

i love him,

a soldier.

the hippity hoppity

my co-teachers were talking about hip hop

and how degrading it is to women.

but really…

snoop dog?

how can you not love him?

i got a whole slew of bitches and ho’s all up in my bizness

and nobodies complaining about me being degrading.

i think it’s heterophobia.

recording

a thirteen hour session with barb

turned out to be

one of the most wonderful evenings i’ve ever had

wait until duane reade starts pumping it into your ears

unlimited

unlimited, my future is unlimited

according to the buzz i get

from the unlimited supply of coffee that is in my life right now.

and i neeeeeeed this,

for there is much work to be done.

my show is coming up in less than three weeks

may 8th, 7pm to be exact.

the laurie beechman theatre

407 west 42nd street @ 9th ave (under the west bank cafe)

do i really have to plug on my own blog?

yes.

i’ve been away from this site more often than usual,

enjoying my new lover

and all of the wonderful things that go with a deep connection.

amazingly, i feel much peace.

now that i don’t believe in fatalism

things are easy.

gotta go orchestrate.

and drink some more coffee…

direct action

as a young

hiv-positive

bisexual

transgendered

woman,

i have got to take my place in this world

or i will be trampled into nothingness.

so i went into the inaugural meeting

of the queer justice league

last night at the center

ready to fight.

started by the phenomenal

larry kramer,

this group is a reaction.

there is more than aids

that is plaguing the queer community.

depression, addiction, body dysmorphia, overall self-destrucion-

all stemming from our surroundings.

and since our health is determined by the environment we live in

along with the choices that we make in this bubble,

we are choosing to rage against the powers

who decide that we don’t deserve

an equal chance at survival.

i’m realizing that

for the underdog to take her place in this world

and develope a sense of self-regard

is revolutionary.

rage on.

going home

for easter

i went to delores park

to see the sisters of perpetual indulgence

easter bonnet pageant

and the hot jesus contest.

then to the eagle’s beer bust

where jc superstar was playing in the background

and we drank and laughed and ate hot tamales.

and just when i got into the groove

of not brushing my hair

smelling a bit

and smoking in the streets,

i gotta go home.

god bless sf.

i heart san fran

HIV patient names to be tracked in all 50 states by year’s end

Associated Press April 01, 2007

The names of people infected with HIV will be tracked in all 50 states by the end of 2007, marking a victory for federal health officials and a quiet defeat for AIDS advocates who wanted to keep patients’ names out of state databases. Vermont, Maryland and Hawaii, the last states not tracking the names of HIV-positive people, are quickly moving toward adopting names-based surveillance. Eight other states and Washington, D.C., began collecting the names of HIV patients last year, and Massachusetts switched in January. The states are bowing to federal pressure so they will not lose money for medications and health services for patients. This is the first year federal funding has been tied to names-based surveillance of HIV. More than $1.4 billion (euro1.05 billion) in federal money will be distributed this fiscal year based on new formulas that include numbers of people with HIV counted by states using names. In some states, including Illinois, millions of dollars are at stake.