OurLadyJ

the edge

June 18, 2007 on 7:42 pm | In politico |

my mother just sent me this:

“I wish that there could have been an alternative way, but there wasn’t in 1975. If there was a drug that I could have taken that would have reduced the pressure, I would have been better off staying the way I was — a totally intact person. I know deep down that I’m a second-class woman. I get a lot of inquiries from would-be transsexuals, but I don’t want anyone to hold me out as an example to follow. Today there are better choices, including medication, for dealing with the compulsion to crossdress and the depression that comes from gender confusion. As far as being fulfilled as a woman, I’m not as fulfilled as I dreamed of being. I get a lot of letters from people who are considering having this operation…and I discourage them all.” - Renée Richards, “The Liason Legacy”, Tennis Magazine, March 1999.

thank god my mama is back

this new identity of her being an accepting and encouraging mother was weirding me out.

i felt like an alien had abducted her.

and so my energy has returned: i feel great,

i’ve grown used to the energy of defense-

relying on its adrenaline to send me into the world everyday.

but ever since the visit when she embraced me, i’ve felt very tired.

it’s good to be home and full of fury.