OurLadyJ

iran

so, i’m freaked out just like anyone else

but anytime someone is a called a demon on the front page of the post,

i’m hesitant to jump on board with the conservative media-mob.

iranian prez ahmadenijad has proven to be against many of the beliefs that we consider basic human rights,

but is this being blown up so that we can have the war we’ve been wanting with iran?

is it possible to leave this one up to the UN

and not charge on by blowing up another middle eastern country?

next

mom crying on the phone

chatting with jordan online

said his buddy was blown up today

roadside bomb

had to clear the site

find his friend dead

another family back home destroyed

and so mom’s crying

all i can feel is anger

at this fucking mess of an administration

my bro’s in danger

and i’m so full of rage that there’s no room for fear

only when things are quiet

then i can feel the fright

like when i’m brushing my teeth in the morning

tears flowing, first thing of the day.

turn up the itunes

get on with my day.

this is how we prevent the revolution.

turn on the tv, turn off your heart.

this is why i put my television on the street 3 years ago.

online dating

i’m stuck at the first box

male/female

seeking= much easier

but then it always stops at the email

hey how are you

i’d love to get coffee sometime

somehow the communication crumbles under the pressure of online love

i’m so frustrated

i’d rather be alone, naked, dancing in my room, trying on jewelry

and being a happy, single fool

21sept2007

a new thought:

it has never felt right for me to say “I’ve always felt like a girl.”

it is correct for me to say “I’ve never fit in with the boys.”

it is correct for me to say “I’m very comfortable living as a woman.”

it is incorrect for me to say “I am a woman trapped inside a man’s body.”

this act of transformation comes from a strong desire to live as a woman.

the desire to become a woman is less strong.

there is most definitely a satisfying rebellion involved here.

if society were to treat the sexes equally,

if the sexes were not segregated,

if man and woman had no differences except for the biology,

I would feel no need to go through the transition that I am going through.

this change is both a personal freedom, and an acceptance of boundaries.

man cannot live as woman without becoming a woman, year 2007.

I believe this is not forever the rule.

tonic

saw nico muhly at tonic tuesday night

refreshing to hear new music

original and provoking

i moved into a space

of higher expectations