OurLadyJ

lustre

allison and i, last night

lustre

so much fun.

go see it! abrons arts center june 25-28

passing strange

oh my god.

you HAVE to go see this musical!

passing strange is one of the best things i’ve ever seen on stage.

the music, writing, performances, direction, set -EVERYTHING- was soooo amazing.

go! go! go!

it’s too durn hot

relaxing in my air conditioning after a night out

glamour glamour

kiss kiss

thinking about my week

…

earlier

i was asked to have a baby for a friend,

and i seriously considered it

until i realized that i would have to go through menapause

and then puberty all over again

in order to produce the baby batter.

but the risks of the child having complications are too great

to put my body through that,

so i’m putting the idea on hold. for now.

…

i’m rarely unsure about how i feel towards something,

but i am unsure how i feel about being infertile.

i suppose there’s a sadness that isn’t ready to surface.

…

i’ve been hesitant to proclaim that i am a woman trapped in a man’s body.

or that i should have been born a woman.

that i should be able to birth a child.

i’ve been hesitant to rebuke nature,

because i don’t want to feel like i am a mistake.

…

yes, there is a sadness

but it’s buried under not wanting to feel like a victim of nature.

…

perhaps i’ll adopt

…

goodnight

summer dresses

so, i swore that i’d never wear a dress

thinking i’d look like a man in a dress

(an obvious insecurity of mine

resulting in an unfortunate judgment of others).

but as i’ve crossed the gender boundaries

i’ve become more and more comfortable

with accepting people in whatever the hell they feel like wearing
resulting in me wearing whatever the hell i feel like wearing

and in this weather, thank god.

i now LOVE dresses!

one glamourous group

the cast of Mayqueen

as presented by Queer Up North

May 23rd, 2008

Manchester, UK

(L-R)

Taylor Mac, Nathan Carrera, Our Lady J, Bitch, Johnny Woo

Justin Bond, David Hoyle

psalm

last night, while performing with the gay men’s chorus

i tilted back my head

during the debut of my newest composition ‘psalm’

and i disappeared

along with the original lyrics of the song.

but out came even more beautiful lyrics

lyrics i had never heard nor rehearsed before,

and i was reminded how exhilarating it feels

to channel.

whatever it was, it was powerful

and it left me blessed.

fashion fashion, please

today, a photoshoot for v magazine

capturing tranny realness for the mainstream

with justin bond

glen marla, kate bornstein, nathan carrera, m lamar & machine dazzle

dazzling…

i LOVED every minute of it.

spring break

no teaching today… spring break.

blogging on my lunch break

daydreaming about my magical weekend:

i went to a 2-day salon on saturday and sunday

and performed, listened and shared live music and words with artists i admire-

justin bond, michael cunningham, glen hansard, marketa irglova,

nadia sirota, nico muhly, jason shears, joyce dewitt, michael stipe…

i felt so lucky to be in the presence of these magical people

with no critics or cameras. just enjoying the moment.

i’m hesitant to even blog about it,

but typing is another way of remembering…

this city is pure magic.